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Chupke se kahin, dheeme paaun se
Jaane kis tarah, kis ghadi
Aage badh gaye, humse raahon mein
Par tum toh abhi thi yahin
Kuch bhi na suna, kab ka tha gila
Kaise keh diya alvida
Feeling Lost.Numb.Tired.Betrayed.
Wondering if I really know the people around me. If they are really mine. If they mean what they say to me. I wonder why I cry so much. Why I feel this so often. I wonder why, the ones closest to the heart hurt the most. Aren’t they supposed to love you like you love them? And when it hurts so much, why do they mean the world to you?
I don’t want to be told what I am. I know what I am. I have lived with myself more than what you have. Don’t I know myself better?
I don’t want you to tell me what you mean to me. Isn’t that for me to answer?
Actually, it isn’t for any one to answer. May be we can never show how much a few people have meant to us. Feelings cannot be brought down to mere words, can they?
Memories of the times we laughed together make me cry today. Is it that I have become unknown to what you have become? Or is it that you were always like this and I never knew? Or is it that you ARE a stranger now? Now...were you always one? I wonder.
I wonder why we make promises we never intend to keep? Isn’t a promise an assurance? Do you expect me to trust you after you have assured me never to be assured by you? Not once, but too many times. I can’t smile if I know u aren’t…how can you? Knowing the reason is you?
And I still wonder why you ask for an apology? An eye for an eye? Then feel the way I feel. I want you to. Let me know how it feels.
Forgive me if I can’t understand you.
I can’t understand myself either.
I can understand neither love…nor hatred.
And I still don’t understand why I cry so much.
Jinke darmiya gujri thi abhi
Kal tak yeh meri zindagi
Dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko
Hum bhi kar chale alvida
Alvida, alvida, meri raahein alvida
Meri saansein kehati hai, alvida
Alvida, alvida, ab kehna aur kya
Jab tune keh diya, alvida
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And yes, I will never understand why I got a 75 in English.
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And yes, I will never understand why I got a 75 in English.
3 comments:
Mansi?What happened?
dont worry ur not the only one who feels like this at times...
smilee :D at these times, i know its hard to... but i know you can =)...
jinke darmiya guzrethey abhi..
kal tak yeh meri zindagi ... ...
take care !
Very nicely written! :)
Pretty neat and really touching :)
This is exactly how I feel most of the times..but probably you could express it better :)
You don't miss him/her, you probably just miss who you thought he/she was!
Anyway, whatever is bothering you, i'm sure you'll get over it someday :) Everything will be fine soon :)
Keep smiling :)
And once again very very well written! :)
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